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exercise is my medicine. I run, swim, and lift weights anything to keep my body in top form. I am an RN, a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter and a friend. I am grateful for my life and each new day. My PRs Los Angeles Marathon (March 22, 2010) - 6:00:03 San Diego Rock and Roll Half Marathon (June 6, 2010) - 2:47:53 Redondo Beach Superbowl 10K (Feb 2010) - 1:03 Redondo Beach Superbowl 5K (Feb 2009) - 27:31

Saturday, February 26, 2011

wind on my run

 I ran 5 miles in about 1 hour the pier is my turn around point I love the energy of the wind and waves so invigorating!

Negative thoughts try to overtake my mind I am aware that not every thought is true and my awareness allows these thoughts to float away like the puffy white clouds in the sky today. I am aware. awareness is changing who I am becoming.
warm home, loving husband, young open minded children, abundant resources, healthy body,  choices and chance to look forward with excitement and backward with peace and mostly to now and what is at this moment. I am. you are, we are one.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

inner conflict resolution

redefining my exercise strategy

I love running

I do not love marathon running it is too extreme and for my body it produces too many negatives.

I look at it this way.

Running is an excellent way for me to start my day. It makes me happy, the world is just more beautiful and I feel more alive after 30-60 minutes of running. My bright happy brain is engaged alive and humming for the entire day after a run.

Here is the problem running for 3-5 hours is exhausting, painful and unnatural for me. At my fitness level and age marathon training is hurting me.  I ran 13 miles this past weekend and 18 miles the weekend before that and both times the run impacted my entire day took me away from my home and made me wonder WHAT am I doing? I was really in pain toes bloody, left hip aching and many other problems best not discussed.

I am in conflict. Do I stop running?  I love running so NO I will not stop running but I will not run for 4-6 hours straight because the damage outweighs the benefit. The stress and cortisol of running that long outweighs the benefits for me. 

So can 50 yr old women run marathons? YES  I know I can I did last year. But will I? NO probably not, because I know I can but I no longer have that desire.

I am in search of how to live in my body in a healthy positive way. I know that exercise is important to me and I intend to keep moving everyday mostly outside by the ocean. I have added swimming and weight lifting into the mix.

I am grateful for the process of self discovery. I am grateful to those who encouraged me to run a marathon because mostly it is a mind game doing something so unbelievable ~running 26. miles!!

I learned that I can do really hard things. 

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

wake up call

ego driven goals lead to obstacles meant to teach humility

the obstacle is the path

Monday, February 21, 2011

where am I going? goal setting (again)


Cheshire Cat: [singing] 'Twas brilig, and the slithy toves / Did gyre and gimble in the wabe: / All mimsy were the borogroves, / And the mome raths outgrabe. 
Alice: Now where do you suppose...? 
Cheshire Cat: Lose something? 
Alice: [turns around to find just the Cat's smile talking to her] Oh my! oh, no no, I was just... uh never mind. 
Cheshire Cat: Oh, that's quite all right. One moment please. 
[two eyes drop down on top of the mouth and the full cat form appears] 
Cheshire Cat: Second chorus. 
Cheshire Cat: 'Twas brilig, and the slithy toves / Did gyre and gimble in the wabe 
Alice: Why, why you're a cat! 
Cheshire Cat: A *Cheshire* Cat. 
[starts to disappear] 
Cheshire Cat: All mimsy were the borogroves... 
Alice: Oh wait! 
Cheshire Cat: [reappears] There you are! Third chorus... 
Alice: Oh, no, no. I was just wondering if you could help me find my way. 
Cheshire Cat: Well that depends on where you want to get to. 
Alice: Oh, it really doesn't matter, as long as... 
Cheshire Cat: Then it really doesn't matter which way you go. 

Decision making is not my strong suit. I am learning that about myself. What do I want? What are my goals? 

If I do not have goals it doesn't matter what I do right? Just take the path of least resistance and glide along life. Or make some decisions and goals and plan action steps to get to those goals. I need to consider where I want to go in life or how will I know if I ever get there right?

Wednesday, February 16, 2011


I am at a place called DOUBT. I visited this place last year about this time. I think it is a mandatory place you go before you run a marathon. So I acknowledge this place but I am not staying long. Because I know I can run 26.2, the doubt is asking me to ask but why should you? you already did this and what is the point?
 So today I re-examine my motives and press on with self discovery.

I am aware, grateful, excited and afraid.

This Sunday's long run of 19-20 miles is on my mind (hope it stops raining)

also my post marathon plans are brewing
swimming is going to become part of each week instead of each month.

Tonight is a fund raiser for Leukemia at the Hermosa Beach Comedy and Magic Club~that is my charity for the Los Angeles Marathon~I really want to raise awareness I do not like to ask co-workers and family and friends to donate to my running causes I feel like an annoyance asking but if they choose to give I am glad I helped point them towards a good cause. So tonight we will laugh and have a good time while raising money to help a specific family battling Leukemia.

I am not fund raising but Dave is ~please drop by and support him if you feel drawn to support a great cause!! http://www.active.com/donate/noahswish/DAvery

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Valentines Day ♥


hot strong coffee (with my hot strong husband!) 
ww toast/peanut butter
nutrition shake
nutrition shake
Miso Glazed Salmon 
wrapped in prosciutto with miso maple glaze, finished with a mango 
& balsamic glaze drizzle, served with lemon shallot butter green beans 

 I will be truthful, do my best, not complain,take action, have no fear be positive, encourage, let go of outcomes, just do the work, spread love everywhere!


marathon preparation
warmth of love in my life
new day new chances
sexy husband!

themes for this week
have confidence

let go of past

go for it~take action!

Thursday, February 10, 2011


last semester of BSN underway.
papers/ reading/ group discussions/ power points/ lengthy papers/ hours of clinical/ with a looming "project of change"

I work at one local hospital and I love my co-workers/ the hospital/ the doctors most would say So the problem is???? Apparently you don't know me. I just got hired at a second hospital. Why?? Just because I thrive on new exciting challenges and tire of the same old. I also have only worked at my hospital in my current role and want to learn how other hospitals interpret this role. I now work at both places. I bet they both have good/bad. I just want to know my options when I inch closer to working full time. I still have a high school freshman.

Which leads me to my most important role, Mom. I have been a little to self focused lately. Much more time needs to be directed at what makes my baby tick. What I can get her excited about. This year has been a huge change in our house. The two oldest children have moved out into college dorms. It can get really quiet. Then I realized the time is now to jump into whatever excites my youngest child. She is still open to doing things with me. I realized that she is affected by my running and now has 3 of her friends meet at our house after school to run on the beach and then stretch and eat healthy. All these girls look up to me as a role model. I enjoy it and they all decided next year to quit dance and join cross country and track.

My youngest is taking French 2 and loves language. My husband is Lebanese and speak arabic. So my baby girl and I were talking this morning about learning arabic just the two of us so we can communicate at extended family reunions and use the skill when we travel to the middle east. I took arabic in the 80's when I met my husband but never learned it enough to speak in sentences, but I can understand about 80% of conversational arabic which most people would never guess by looking at me! So we are going to learn arabic.

I am not a fan of winter and am so happy it is winding down. I know I know I am lucky to live an inch from the Ocean in a temperate climate............I still have been cold and kind of low energy with short hours of weak sunshine. THANK GOD for Los Angeles Marathon being a Spring race it has kept my mind focused and my body active during an otherwise uninspired time of year. I need to do a few more long runs before March 20th so I can make it 26.2 miles.

Spring cleaning needs to begin. Today!! End of story.

Monday, February 7, 2011

celebrating life

Yesterday I celebrated!
My son was home for the weekend and since his birthday falls midweek we celebrated his 20th birthday a few days early.
A birthday in our home always means an old fashioned from scratch birthday cake. Always Anthony's favorite part of his birthday!

Anthony's favorite cake recipe
1 c shortening
1 3/4c sugar
3 eggs
1t vanilla
1 c milk
2 c flour
1t baking soda
1/2t baking powder
1/2c coco powder
1/2t salt
 cream sugar/shortening then add eggs and vanilla. combine dry ingredients on a parchment paper and alternate milk and dry ingredients until all combined. cook in 2 round cake pans in 350 degree oven for 30 minutes. cool
2 c powdered sugar+ 3 T coco powder+1T butter+2T milk

most of the cake is gone with my son back to his dorm room to share with his room mates as they try to figure out the meaning of organic chemistry and life in general!

I also had fun running yesterday started in a misty damp drizzle and ended in a warm ocean hug! Did not run in the Redondo Beach Superbowl 10K instead ran to Hermosa Beach and home through the crowds in Redondo Beach!
Celebrating the fact that my 14 year old and her friends are doing Sunday morning beach runs now and want to be on Cross Country next year!!!
I also had fun cheering against the Steelers (remember I am from Cleveland)

 I am celebrating life because it is good!

Thursday, February 3, 2011



I found this on the running wench's blog today and had to post this into my blog and say THANK YOU! to her for her inspired blog!!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

49 days to train

49 days until 26.2
I am obsessed with this idea and excited and kind of a bit freaked out too.
After my long run this past Sunday...and it is now Wednesday.....I can stand up from sitting down normally again!!

Not too shabby for a 50 year old lady. I was able to do almost 18 miles in under 4 hours. I ran the entire time (except a bathroom break at Hermosa Pier) Since my goal this year at the marathon is to run the entire 26.2 no walking I know I will need to get more long runs in the next few weeks.

This coming weekend I am planning to join a group of runners from Noah's Wish fund raising team and run a section of the actual course. That should be very interesting. I look forward to meeting Dave,  http://www.wonderfulworldofdave.com/ I have enjoyed following his training and he has run many marathons this past year. I just hope I do not slow down their pace!