why I overcomplicate stuff is a mystery
Why do I work at 2 hospitals 2 miles apart and force myself to learn 2 systems/doctors/nurses/routines?
Why do I get paralysis from over analysis?
Why did I just spend 3 years and thousands of dollars getting a degree that would allow me to stay in my current position?
Why and this is really a mystery do I spend hours online focused on gaining health when I am healthy?
In the past few years ~I stopped smoking, gave up soda, stopped living on junk food. I stopped shopping and gathering more and more useless crap. I woke up.
I started becoming aware of what I ate; I realized I was spiritual even though I reject organized religion.
I started running and love the process of training for big events. It is a blast to plan and train and you never know what will happen out there. Anyone remember Los Angeles Typhoon, I mean Marathon this past year. I will never regret that day. When I am 99 years old that memory will bring a smile to my face and I did not cross the finish line! I froze solid to a Starbucks chair around mile 24. It is the stuff that you can not predict, plan or even want that makes the best memories. I will probably participate in the Los Angeles Marathon every year until I can no longer walk because it is just that incredible!
So I am trying to bring myself to sign up for another event. So I can once again set my mind reaching, planning towards the big day.
I was thinking Long Beach in October or Las Vegas in December. Still have not committed to either. I will plan and think about it this weekend. Of course I like to complicate things and here’s the rub I currently like to run barefoot; actually naked feet no weird silicone things……..I now love barefoot sand running.